April 2011
Off the top of my head.
I close my eyes in hope of bliss. I need escape from all this shit. I hate this pain, fear and regret. A truth I’ll hardly soon forget. Wrapped in my mind of ultimate end. A cut left open to be tend. I open my eyes for the rules are set. Playing the role of my own fears pet. Fuck this world and all it holds. Its value is set with piles of gold. And when your weight brings you down below. The...
Clarity of mind
is a curse.
Day 15: Start over, or pick up the pieces?
Start over. The only way to fix a broken window is to melt it down and build a new one. It not worth the time and effort of fixing something if its beyond repair. When someone cries. You can’t take those tears and put them back. Life goes on, as does everything else. Take what you got and make something new.
Day 14: If you had one wish, that you couldn't use...
I’d wish for my father to have never lost his business. His life has been stressful ever since he lost his shop. And working for other people has made him really touchy. That, or in a less selfish aspect, I would wish that instead of the US owing other countries money, they owed us.
Day 13: What keeps you going?
My dreams do. My hopes. The idea that someday, they will be tangible. The thought that none of my dreams will come true. Or all of my hopes are worthless leaves me in a void of will. And thats where I am now in life. I need to start dreaming again…
Day 12: Would you ever give someone a second...
Everyone deserves at second chance. At least once in my opinion. Everyone makes mistakes. And believe it or not, some people actually learn from them. So its worth finding out if someone is willing to fix what they broke. Or to find out if they didn’t care at all to begin with…
Day 11: How have you changed the most?
I have changed soooo much over the years. I could hardly remember how I used to be how I used to be… Haha. I used to be the quiet kid in the corner that when you talked to all you would get is a one word reply. Now I’m the kid who tries to make everyone laugh whenever I can. Personally though. My outside will never reflect me inside. Simple because I know people don’t like the...
Day 10: What is the worst thing you've ever done...
Lie. Pretty open, but pretty obvious. To be exact what I’ve lied about, I would probably have to lie about it to say it. And to that end I’m digging a deeper whole. But time changed all of this for me. And I don’t think I will ever have to face this lie i made head on ever again.
Day 9: Do you believe in yourself?
Nope. I don’t believe in myself at all to be honest. I let myself down soooo many times I don’t even count anymore. I believe in people that believe in me, which, to some extent is believing in yourself.
Sometimes...
I feel like my life is a time machine. Going through watching everything pass by and change.
Day 8: If you could change one thing about...
I would probably change my hair. Its caused me more social stress than it rightfully should have. I’ve never really woken up in the morning proud of my hair. But I guess I get what i deserve now. Because I’m losing it ._. …
Day 7: How do you deal with your problems?
I try my best to avoid problems at most situations. But when the problems do arise I normally procrastinate them to death hoping they will go away.
Day 6: Has music ever inspired you to change...
Not really. If anything, its made my mode change accordingly but I’ve never made a full change from listening to music.
For the people who wish they could do more.
A heart can see more than any eye could,
A world more vivid than any eye should,
You see all the blacks and blues,
The darkest of grays and other hues,
The tears that fall from not ones eyes,
Their color shines with no surprise,
To every shade of light you choose,
A different one your eye will loose,
Cause there is no black without a white,
There is no bruise without a fight,
For...
Day 5: Do you have plans for the future?
I don’t really have plans. I have hopes. I can’t commit to any solid idea. I need something tangible.
Day 4: What can't you live without?
The internet. I live in the middle of nowhere. Between civilization and the edge of the world. The internet keeps me in contact with the life I wish I was living and keeps me motivated on getting there.
Day 3: What is your biggest fear?
I have a few fears. Out of all the fears I have though. I think my biggest fear is being alone forever. I’ve been alone for as long as I can imagine. Only a few times have I actually got a grasp of what its like to be wanted, to be part of someone else’s life. But it was all to bittersweet. The only thing that keeps me going is the hope that someday those feelings I experienced will...
dallywally:
Expectations:
Reality:
Day 2: Have you ever been in love?
Being in love and loving someone are two completely different things. There was a time in my life when I believed that I was in love. That I was utterly in love with someone. I came to realize later that I was so blind by what I thought was love that I couldn’t see the big picture. Love doesn’t work if your the only one in the equation to begin with. The lesson here being, never love...
Day 1: Do you have any regrets?
Who doesn’t have regrets? Everyone has thought about something they should have done before. Regrets are everywhere. But to me, they are a constant factor of life. They make me strive to do better. But they keep me down in the same aspect. The main regrets in my life are that I never took advantage of everything I had to offer and because of that. I am where I am now. With a handful of...
15 days of truth.
1. Do you have any regrets?
2. Have you even been in love?
3. What is your biggest fear?
4. What can’t you live without?
5. Do you have plans for your future?
6. Has music every inspired you do change yourself?
7. How do you deal with your problems?
8. If you could change one thing about yourself, what would it be?
9. Do you believe in yourself?
10. What is the worst thing...
